I was originally going to post this back some time in May but I was in a life or death battle with three rhinoceroses and all I had were night vision googles, a kazoo, and a pair of chopsticks.
Or maybe I just forgot I had this draft sitting around. Whatever. So anyway…
I have a ridiculous phobia of dentists. I had multiple terrible experiences as a child and as a young adult on my own, I couldn’t afford to eat let alone go to the dentist. My problems were from both neglect and genetics, so yay me. By the time I started adulting, my teeth were in
terrible even more terrible shape.
The answer was sedation dentistry. A full day of drugs, being driven around, and spitting out things. Dental insurance is ridiculously expensive; not all of us can work a union job.
Not just expensive, but thousands of dollars worth of work at once. Thousands. I couldn’t bear the dentist and I wanted to get everything done at once, so that’s basically why I did it. Bursting into tears half way to the dentist and begging to turn around and we don’t have to do this and we can cancel the appointment and it’s so expensive turn around turn around turn around!
(Fact: we did not get to turn around)
So, recently, I started having tooth pain. I was terrified because there just isn’t money for this
right now ever. I didn’t want to go but it was excruciating. I didn’t go the sedation route for the first time in about 20 years. I did take two clonazepam though. I didn’t throw up or become hysterical. This is a big deal as that is what would have happened had I not self medicated. It was still expensive; about $220 for an x-ray. That’s all they did, but to be fair, it was a fancy x-ray.
First off, the tooth in question should not have been hurting at all–I had a root canal and crown about 10 years ago. That’s why the tooth is so opaque. The nerves are removed/deadened so there shouldn’t be any pain. Here’s some even fancier animation for you:
Now, if you look at my x-ray, you can see there’s a gap where the canal should be fully filled. You see the white ‘pool’ under the tooth? That’s an infection, also known as PAIN OF DEATH. After my super expensive x-ray, I had to go to a specialist so they could drill through the crown. Best case scenario: they drill through the crown, remove the canal stuff, pack it with antibiotic stuff, come back in three weeks, remove the antibiotic stuff, repack the canal stuff, set temporary filling, then go to an additional appointment at the regular dentist to get a permanent filling.
Yeah. Dentist –> Endodontist –> Endodontist –> Dentist.
Worst case scenario: They drill through the crown, break it, have to replace the whole thing and send the mafia after me to break my kneecaps after I can’t pay them.
Luckily, everything went as planned. Expensive. First dentist x-ray was $220, filling and cleaning after the fact was $300? I already don’t remember because I like to block out trauma. The endodontist was $15oo, but the follow up procedure was included. So as expensive as this was, still cheaper than sedation. AND I didn’t have any tooth problems other than the original reason that bright me in! No passive aggressive comments, no accidental stabbing me in the mouth, no jerks, no assholes. I don’t floss enough which I think is pretty much standard for everyone. At the endodontist I was shaking and crying but I pulled myself together by the time the dentist came in so no one saw which basically means it didn’t happen.
In other news, I am doing the thing! I have accidentally been working on my ChÜberlist. Accidental as in, I have just been living my life and making decisions that were not motivated by a list that I would have already forgotten if I didn’t have it blogged. So here are my updates:
1. Lose 10% of my current total body weight. – I’ve lost 5% of my body weight! Yay me! I decided to start paying attention on May 22 and it is actually getting easier. I’m only dieting at the moment, but I’ll soon add actual exercise because right now I’m still too lazy and unmotivated. Baby steps.
2. Practice better drug adherence. – I have been doing much better, actually. I’m not skipping on purpose but there are nights that I fall asleep early and forget. That is happening less and less though.
3. Get a haircut that I can maintain. – Is a pony tail a haircut?
4. Sleep like a normal human being. – What is “normal”, anyway? Who’s to say how I sleep isn’t normal? I think you’re being rather judgmental.
5. Be conscious about my appearance. – Okay, I bought some things. I am aware that I have an appearance. I have ONE picture of myself that I like. These are all big steps so I’ll take what I can get.
1. I need a meal plan. – Eating human food is the plan for now. We do follow our breakfast schedule and I have a ton of muffins and breakfast tacos and frittatas in the freezer for consumption.
2. I need a chore schedule.
3. Major Spring/Summer/Autumn/Winter cleaning. – I threw out SO. MUCH. STUFF. Old computers, the chair I rocked my babies in every night, lots of memories. Bittersweet.
4. Get the ice maker fixed.
5. Stop procrastinating on all of the minor repairs and projects. – I replaced a towel bar. I did something.
Kids – I AM KILLING IT WITH THIS PARENTING THING. Okay, I’ve been killing it for like, a week, but still, a week is progress. We have finished our first week back to school since I took almost two months off to deal with that whole business thing. School every day, violin practice every day, tae kwon do on Monday and Friday, violin on Tuesday and on Friday we go to the park to practice tae kwon do (I let Josh kick and punch the shit out of me) and play. Their bedrooms are adequate. If I can just keep this up I will be impressed and very pleased.
1. Enforce a consistent school, practice, wake up and bedtime routine.
2. School at the library or park once a week.
3. Have lesson plans one month in advance.
4. Be more regimented on practice for extra curricular activities.
5. Help the kids stay on task with cleaning their rooms.
Crafty – Ain’t nobody got time for that.
1. Finish hand quilting that giant king sized quilt.
2. Finish water color painting.
3. Sketchbook every day. Eventually.
4. Teach Robin to sew and to knit (those were her resolutions, so now they’re mine as well)
5. Knit at least 2 pair of socks.
6. Blog at least once a week.
1. Revamp the fish tanks. – Done, but always redoing. I feel a bit stretched thin (mentally and financially) to do much more at this time but I want more fish, more plants, etc. So basically, more money.
2. Wash my car once a month (inside and out)
So I like all this good news lately so if everything could stay consistent for a while that’d be great. Picture unrelated: