this thing is still about things



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I am spoons in a drawer
all the same,
only miniscule differences.
I’m all that I ever was
nothing is lost,
just not used.
I am not Sylvia Plath
in the crotch of a fig tree.
I can eat what I want,
with any spoon I want.
Nothing is lost.

I found this scribbled on a piece of paper that was shoved in a messenger bag I used for work.  One side was research criteria; this poem was on the back.  The Sylvia Plath reference is from The Bell Jar:

I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story.  From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked.  One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn’t quite make out.  I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn’t make up my mind which of the figs I would choose.  I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.  ~Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar, Chapter 7

I think I will hang on to the phrase “nothing is lost”.

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